vendredi 15 juin 2012

Que penser du monde de maintenant ?


Les humains ;... perdus comme toujours dans les détours de leurs consciences, dans les représentations multiples que leur impose ce monde. Une réalité dont on ne sait si le reflet qui en jaillit est conforme à la perception que l’on s’en fait. Les humains s’exténuent et se répètent, s’imposant à chaque ère une voûte de croyances, juste pour tenir debout, juste pour avancer, rien de stable en fait. Que penser du monde de maintenant ? Une sombre conséquence douloureuse des travers d’un monde plus vieux ; d’un monde qui a déjà été détruit par le passé. Il pense aux fêlures anciennes, aux inconséquences des sociétés précédentes et à l’infectieux balayage d’espoirs réduits en bouillies. 

Sortir de soi, s’exiler, s’oublier ou s’évaporer, à chaque ère sa fuite, à chaque réalité son pendant onirique ! Tant des temps anciens - bien avant l’art - la représentation du corps, tant l’enfermement qu’il génère que l’échappatoire qu’il constitue était déjà au cœur des préoccupations. Par la geste et par le mouvement cependant. Leur langage n’était pas encore structuré et dans les oscillations sonores et gestuelles de son occurrence, le corps signifiait tout entier. Artaud… le théâtre balinais… le Mexique. La convulsion et la danse ; le cri et le spasme ! Quand l’esprit ne s’était pas encore extirpé du corps qui le constitue ; quand l’esprit n’était pas une translation merdique de Dieu… quand la merde n’était pas une honte, quand on n’avait pas annihilé les sens… quand l’art n’était pas une tentative pathétique d’un retour à l’animal que l’on a oublié de rester. 

lundi 4 juin 2012

...and then the void came...



Foucault said that this period of time was to be lived in a Deleuze’s trap…

There are so many different entries in this hazy society surrounding us… Why did he come here? For what reason? And what reason has to do in there? A dream coming true or a fantasy he’s trying to chase? Whatever! So he came to Paris, trying to become what they all did before… full of energy and desires, a romantic point of view… confronting an ideal past floating in the valley of utopia with a furious present consuming around him.

Don’t give up! Feed yourself with art, go around these streets and feel and observe. Dive into the pool of unconsciousness this world went in… be a witness of its deconstruction! This is why he came for in a way. He prepared his stay during a long time. Anyhow he’ll make it through; even he has to cross loneliness and misunderstanding.

It’s funny how we can have hopes and dreams about the future, like if a simple change of space and time would cure all the inner fears or something. Always projecting ourselves in better state of mind, happier conditions… the will of easiness to come… He was constantly thinking about the book he would write in Paris, the places he’d visit and so on… being free to work, alone and six months in front of him… meeting crazy people everyday, walking in those famous streets with the big names of History and literature in his head, visit the legendary museums and contemplate the masters of painting. Cultural ecstasy! Artistic climax! He could imagine himself walking with frenzy with Tropic of Cancer under his arm reading his old bud with bulimia, crossing the city with Miller.
Anyway he could, he was preparing his experiment in the best dispositions… A book about the historical repetitions… Taking one place, Paris actually and let evolve four different times in the space. A schizoid journey! Like if Rimbaud and Artaud were making the biggest scandal of Saint-Germain-des-Prés’s history together with Guy Debord and an astonished citizen of the twenty first century… The biggest challenge was first to select the appropriated periods of this strange human history we know about. Most of his art heroes lived or went through Paris, at one point at least, so let’s dive into the worlds they’ve all been through and make it one imagined universe out of time.

Let’s take the fucked up 60’s, the wicked 20’s, the schizophrenic 2010’s and the bloody 1870’s… How to construct such a novel? So he reads like a desperate student who didn’t learn quickly enough for his exams… why so much hurry? He reads at the same time books about the history of Paris, sociological books about the cities, the surrealist writers, about the dada movement and Rimbaud, about may 68, Deleuze and Debord, Zola… it’s never enough, he’s always behind his work. So he got sent into the Library of Babel, without knowing it yet… Trying to construct the book, he makes plans, takes remarks and so on. He’d like to be able to have a vision of the whole thing before throwing himself in the never-ending fiction’s possibilities.

Then he got there. The first few days were happy. She came by and it was alright. But he could feel the hidden fears, the gloomy shadows ready to go through his body and make a hell of his life. Unable to name them and to see what’s to come, he tries to enjoy those few days of weightlessness, this bracket of illusion within a furious reality just around the corner. And it consumed itself, the easiness of course!

And then the void came…

…And it came tremendously, without any warning! Fucking emptiness! The sensation took him right at the bottom of the guts, right there on the platform when he was sayin’ goodbye… Crying all the sadness inside of him, he felt lost, empty and desperate in the middle of this never ending city. For the first time, he’s fully confronted to his own self… he dreamed about it, saying it was he’s only way to experiment the spirit he came to seek… Again the bitter gap between what he thinks and what he lives scares the shit out him. Back to the room he’ll live in during his stay in the capital, he has a quick and lonely look around: beside all the books and his papers, all he can look at his the sexy little shirt she forgot… a material ruin of her celestial presence in the room… like her smell still floating… and then it disappears. All he has is a few euro left, a little bit of weed and the affliction he carries around!